All Hail the Heartbreaker
Theme Music: Taking Back Sunday albums “Where you want to be” and “Tell all your friends”
A heartbroken girl mid twenties proclaiming her hatred for guys and relationships and feelings in general. Stop now I have spoiled the rest of this entry for you. Some could look at the first sentence as more of a warning which is what I really intend it to be. I do not expect eyes to glance even past the fantastically visually pleasing sentence this is. People will scroll through because as I am writing, I can feel paragraphs forming in my head and my hands are just the slaves working the long hours to please the boss as if to satisfy him enough to assign them another task, or rest completely. However, this ADHD lady never has calm fingers. Okay right, broken heart, I was trailing off. Okay, so what is it with guys and cheating? I mean i would be totally okay if you just never wanted to be serious in the first place. That way when I realize how emotionally stunted you are, I wont feel bad ignoring your messages and calls while you are in a bar hitting on other great wonderful women. Honestly, whats wrong with honesty? Don’t promise me the moon and the stars but then ask me to pay for taco bell. I don’t wear uncomfortable clothing and makeup for you just for you to think i am flirting with the guy at the concession counter. (PS i knew him and we were chatting not flirting, BOOM) Then my curiosity ventures to the great technology of text messaging, Now the delete button should be clearly marked, and there should be a “Boyfriend Mode” that hides or automatically deletes text messages from certain people you choose. (If someone invents this, not only do i call dibs, but i am going to ask for money, but not an outrageous sum) Lets get back to the cheating subject. I often think of lions when i hear some cunt complaining about finding text messages of her man and another girl on his locked phone he had on his bedside table while in the shower. Lions have several bitches, they work for their keep but they are taken care of for the most part by the lion. As humans, more typically, spoiled brat american women, we can not understand the concept of sharing and working together as a team for a greater good. Therefore we lose our minds at the thought of our guy out growing our personalities and mannerisms and seeking attraction in another female. We dont take the time to look within ourselves to understand the disconnect we immediately smother the dude and guilt them to hid their feelings and force them to become a vicious blood thirsting creature with an itch that needs scratching. We cant understand the idea of taking a chance, growing and exploring to find something that satisfies the luxury of simply being yourself. If you are still reading and have taken an interest in this I smile and appreciate your time. If you are confused and think I am crazy, I smile and appreciate your time. I guess I just want to know why people continually cheat on one person. I underlying question is why does that other person continue to let it happen. We can explore that in a different intoxicated emotionally heightened evening. Stay tuned. Right now I want to explore why a person, a male. chooses to remain dominate to one individual claiming a territory, yet seeks satisfaction elsewhere. I would love replies or comments. Why cant that individual let go? Why does the individual need the claim? I am sure countless books can be recommended and there are real answers and this is all pointless but lets finish with the honesty issue. Lets start trying to accept the truth from others. Really listen to what they are saying and feeling so that you can make the best decision possible to better the situation. I understand greed and selfishness is an obstacle, but we have learned to overcome greater obstacles in our world, Lets have better relationships, and more honest connections so that we can get rid of all the bullshit. That’s how the plague started.
*This was not proofread. Any and all grammatical errors will be given zero fucks.